Dying star..

I know this is saddening but I just have to let it out of me. I'm ----- << this close to backsliding but I'm still hanging on because of the fellowship I'm having in church.. Hopefully everything will last.  This is a tough time that am going through and I know that I should turn to God instead but I tried and it really isn't helping.. Everything is too overwhelming.. Everytime I try climbing back up, there will be something to make sure I fall off. I can't take it anymore! I need a break from everything! Anyone out there sees this please pray for me! Cause I believe God will pull me out from the black hole like He always do and bring me back to the person I once used to be.