Past.... Present....

I want to feel wanted... I want to be of use to you... I want to learn more things...

How am i gonna learn, if i'm kept from stuff. I feel like am worthless... I'm not good

at anything... I can't be of help in any areas. I'm without talents... Who would love

a person who is a nobody? I thought i was a goner. But i can't help but think i'm special in God's eyes.

I find it odd, a guy with no talents, abilities being so love by Him. Love is the word.

Without love there would be nothing. Seeing many loving people in Church makes me

wonder, Man i'm so lucky to be here! The only hope being found there. Regret not

attending it in my earlier part of life. But i guess its God's plan for me to be

there at that timing. I need to appreciate it more. The world out there is a

battlefield i tell you! No mercy for each other, not forgiving, being shot in the

back and the lists goes on. Church people are so different i tell you! It feels

like am in mini Heaven. Given a chance to help out and show what God's given hidden

talents in me are. As i have said before about this Church being special.

It's just not any Church, its WRPF the one and only. Thank

God for the memories. Thank God for letting me be here. Thank God for the love that

you have shown me. Thank God for giving me the coolest set of friends, i can't ask

for anything better. I look forward to the many more years and awesome times with

you guys.


Never have i ever felt so love before. It's time i start extending/sharing my love
to everyone be it in Church or world. :)

Last of all after reading Jarrid Wilson's blog. Not only did it minister to me but i felt its gonna be useful for others so look below!



Just because things seem to be going wrong, doesn’t necessarily mean you’re not doing things right. God has a distinct way of incorporating His love into each of our lives. And while you might think you’re God’s target practice, you’re probably and most definitely wrong.

Think About It:

Just because you think things aren’t going right, doesn’t mean you are doing something wrong. 99% of the time, what we want isn’t necessarily what God wants. So, if you are consistently seeking after God and obeying His commands, there is nothing to worry about. Press On. God will get you through this season.

But, if you are not thirsting after Him daily and living a Christ-like image, then maybe you do have some things to change.

The Point:

Sometimes, God uses the disasters around us to help rebuild the heart within us.

God has a purpose. God has a plan. And everything happens for a reason. Trust in His purpose, and seek after His plan.

Sometimes, God has to break us down before He can build us up.

Romans 8:28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

- Jarrid Wilson

Struggling.....

I've no idea why i am struggling to show myself. My emotions, my feelings. Wishing i

could get away from every worldly issue. Get away from everything. Somewhere really

quiet. Somewhere where i can not worry about anything. Searching for myself, i'm lost

somewhere... God could you bring me back?

Overworking

I'm getting drained out. I'm really tired. Although i may

be in my 20s, i feel like am 80. I wish my heart can rest. It's been working 24/7, 365

days. Every now and then, i get chest pain. I wish it would stop, I wish the valve to

my heart isn't loose. I want to have feel normal.

The change

So much things has been going on... As i thought to myself if the change was really

worth it? The season of change for me, this journey isn't gonna be easy as i fell many

times.

Forgive me father as i have made mistakes and said hurtful things. I want You to take

control of the throne of my life. Make me the kind of person You want me to be.

Breaking out of the nutshell..

Hmmm seems like i'm mostly awake at night.

Anyway YAY's 1st anniversary is coming, 10th March is the date. The thought of wanting

to help out in it came into my mine. But which area can i help out in? I wonder...

It didn't take too long before Debbie asked if i wanted to help her in ''DANCING''

O.O dancing? I rejected her cause its beyond me to dance in front of everyone.

Heh.. But this didn't once slip out of my mind. The thought seems to be stuck in my

head. I was asked again to do it but i rejected it again.. And then came a whisper

into my ears, asking me to step out of my comfort zone. I spoke to God regrading

this, and i came to realized that We only live life ONCE why restrict ourselves to

do things we are afraid of? Wouldn't it be great if we could do things without

restricting ourselves? Just don't think so much and just have fun. Seeing everyone

putting effort in it makes me wanna have a go at it as well.. I'm gonna try my best.

Stepping out of my comfort zone once again.. I'm sure everyone and i will have fun.

:)



Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.